"Reflecting…"

Watching you from a distance
I see you caught up in your plastic life.
You change like a chameleon right before my eyes.
The person you showed me is who I miss.
Did that part of you die or never exist???
You brought out a part of me that I have never shown.
I haven't let you go 'cause I suppose I don't know how.
Throw aside the expectations and all things that wouldn't be said..
I'm showing my cards so there's nothing left to pick apart.
I want you to know the sound of my heart as it hits this paper.
I want the last breath I had before you kissed my lips,
feel your touch melt away my numbness,
and see the night skies in your blue eyes again.
Listen to you talk until I can't stay awake..
Meet me in my dreams and call me if you wake.
The way you left slowed me down
left me carrying a torch without a flame.
Tried to find God's way that gave my life direction
Unable to explain the intensity of my affections.
I see the heat rising with every mile along the way.
The darkness of the crossroads is like a bandit to the night
and all that really matters is what my heart wants to say..
I hear your voice inside my head
and turned to see you standing there.
You faced off with my weakness,
and fought my childish convictions.
Unable to explain the intensity of my affections.
Feel every chance I have slip into the past.
Can you help me forget what's holding me back..
You should know I find it hard to say that…
I surrender my heart.
I can't erase you from my mind.
I need your undiluted serenity…

By J. Kintner
written for the only one I've ever truly loved..